...mixed emotions

Couldnt have come up with a second post on the same day if it wasnt for the little 'get-together' we just had. Continuing from the previous one, had an awsome nap and the bloody headache was as good as over. By the time i woke up, the idea for a party had already been sealed, signed and delivered...kindof, and my task was appointed to me the moment my eyes were open. Apparently i was incharge of food relief program and had to travel some miles, literally, to take care of that. Again, the weather was as brutal as it can get here, but still, nothing can beat a long walk on a chilly evening with your best friend forever aka the ipod. With the rhcp, pf and others keeping me entertained, the task was successfully accomplished. Really, many a times the conditions dont seem to matter a bit if you are enjoying, which is the keyword here. We all know what example einstien gave to explain relativity. So, back i was, and the bash started. Nothing new that can be mentioned here which most of you dont know. Engineers have more or less limited ways of going about their celebrations, be it birthdays, farewells, convocations or just yet another hang out. Strangely enough, four years down the line and after numerous such occassions, never have i felt that things should change. Yes, the variation is there, but more often than not, things remain the same and never has the fun part been compromised upon. So i finally had to revert to the 'monk' for helping me out in somethings, and as usual i am out of my misery, dont care if its for a while but feels nice. Anyways,this was the farewell party of a close friend/senior and this is the particular flavor i dont like being in. Mostly we never get to see the person throwing the bash because by the time people wake up the next day, or the day after it, the person is long gone. Only after a spree of such happenings does one come to realise that the number of people have reduced significantly and now there is no big group, which is what it used to be, left. But it was just now that i realised that its not far when i will be in that place, when it would be me who will be leaving this place, for good, and after 6 long years. Cant feel more emotions running through me at the same time as i do when i realise this fact, every single time. There is lot to look forward to, lot to see, feel experience and do but guess this will be one thing most difficult to get over with. I still do have about 6 months left, but considering the pace at which time goes by nowadays, i dont think thats going to be that long. Alongwith this, there are the conflicting thoughts which hope this to end as soon as possible so as to make a new start in a new phase, a clean slate, so as to say. Cant say that there isnt anything or anyone to look back to here, but life is about choices and one's thoughts too make a choice to get inclined one way or the other. In my case they're still oscillating. Maybe i know that even being sure about anything wont help so i might as well just go with the flow and let myself go through whatever is thrown my way. With this and a lot in my mind, i stumble back to my room prepare for yet another day ....minus one more friend.